The truth, of course, is that I love every one of her gorgeous songs, regardless of the meanings behind them. It just so happens that this particular selection speaks volumes to me.
And tonight, for me.
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What I deserve is comfort for my shaken soul;
The water on my hands are tears from long ago.
My skin lets it in; it's always been too thin,
Since I can't remember when.
And, oh: what I deserve, what I deserve, what I deserve...
Oh, darling: what I deserve, what I deserve, what I deserve.
There's solace in this dusty earth and rocky hills,
But even starry skies can't mend my broken will.
My blood doesn't pour; there's nothing to bleed for,
I don't believe, anymore.
And, oh: what I deserve, what I deserve, what I deserve...
Now, I have done the best I can.
Oh, but what I've done, it's not who I am:
And, oh: what I deserve...
Time has left me feeling old and losing hope;
Hell, I've walked a long way just to find the end of my rope.
You say that I should pray: well, I would, but my faith has strayed.
I don't believe I'll be saved.
And, oh: what I deserve, what I deserve, what I deserve...
Oh, darling: what I deserve, what I deserve, what I deserve.
1 comment:
Your writing leaves me almost breathless. Things I've never been able to put words to seem somehow more clear as I read. Not sure what to say...I guess just wanting you to know I am glad you are writing. I'm grateful for your ability to express your heart and share it. When I read the words to this song, I'm reminded of where I am, faith questioned or maybe set aside, not believing, not sure of what is ahead or if I can even make it there to see.
I see it has been awhile since you have written here. I'll still check back. You make so much more sense than you know...and express it more beautifully than I can explain. Thank you. Wishing good things for you, for your parents, your family. Wishing you much love, joy, peace -- the things your heart absolutely deserve!
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